What can I do?

There is a longing only You can fill....

My deliverer, I will wait for you oh Lord, for Your mighty hand to save...

When all crumbles in, when all fails, where can I go? what can I do? but to look to You...

I hope I run to You straight away rather than lean on my strength

Redeemed(:

I know I'm weak,

I know I'm unworthy to call upon Your name.

but because of Grace,

because of Your mercy

I stand here unashamed......

What on Earth am I here for?

DISCIPLESHIP- You were created to become like Christ

Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus.- Phillippians 2:5

Flipping in the newspapers with the fallen regime in Libya, the picture that stared at me was the similar scene of blood stains on the ground in pools surrounding fallen/abandoned bodies without the reach of medical treatment, like the one that I met in Phnom Penh.

Pray for the new people in government to show compassion in the face of contemplating the very immediate gratification of taking revenge against followers of the former leader.

What on Earth am I here for?

excerpt from Rick Warren

"For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." - Ephesians 2:10

WORSHIP- You were planned for God's pleasure

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength."

- Mark12:30

Love the Lord your God
With all your heart
With all your soul
With all your mind
And with all your strength

With all my heart
With all my soul
With all my mind
And with all my strength

I will serve the Lord
With all my heart
With all my soul
With all my mind
And with all my strength

With all my heart
With all my soul
With all my mind
And with all my strength

I will love You Lord
With all my heart
With all my soul
With all my mind
And with all my strength

I will love You
And I will serve You
And I will praise You
For all my days yeah
And I will love You
I will love You
Yes, I will love You

its time

Having kept this at the back of my head for the past few months owing to distractions all over and the work at school that has been overflowed with tasks to do.
It has been wonderful celebrating in this space.
But perhaps its a good time to start exploring prayers for others in world that need it.

And its one of the things I have to learn to lay down and let God take over this space more.

it's not a good bye, but a 'see-you-later', just like the resurrection and eternal life promised to in placing your faith with the Father(:

Taking Him everywhere I go

This song and a few others accompanied on an uncanny night at school, typing out reflections that were long overdued.Thankful for the quiet moments(:
and lesson learning to complete my work more efficiently!

Your convictions?

The height of your accomplishment will equal the depth of your convictions

-William F. Scolavino-

Just blessed to glean from philosophers though they get really deep sometimes

Pause

In the myraid of emotions that whizzes past me this week, of work demands, relationships, ministry.. I open the letter containing updates that come from Campus Crusade, usually reflections from the country leader which I had started to receive when I got on board supporting a friend of mine, though she has completed her short term internship with them and moving into studies. this line popped out....

" 'Do not fear what they dear, do not be frightened.' But in your hears, set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect."
1 Peter 3:14-15

Want to be ever equipped and ready and being a light in the marketplace

sings* 'Let your light shine, woahhhhhhh, Let your light shine, woahhhhhhh. Let your light shine and let Jesus shine through you....

May yours too(:

Ouch* pain sia

don't a lot of people say "the truth hurts?"

so one of these truths or feedback was, "that's like wallowing in self-pity?" after we talked briefly and analysed about this 'working late' thing.
The mind's defensive barrier started to build up, but it was a good wake up call, which will be helpful in charting future days at school.

Remembering to put God first(:

YWAM

What
about
being
a

Youth

with
a
mission?

pondering tonight, with Radion, and a walk to Cambodia, before the work is screaming to me at the corner. Thank God for wisdom(:

Beautiful One

Remembering from the time of praise we had for the Father while we begin to celebrate and witness hearts of two individuals joining together and it again appearing while we had the children praise the Lord.

Beautiful One - Tim Hughes

Wonderful, so wonderful
Is Your unfailing love
Your cross has spoken mercy over me
No eye has seen, no ear has heard
No heart could fully know
How glorious, how beautiful you are!

Beautiful One I love You
Beautiful One I adore
Beautiful One my soul must sing

Powerful, so powerful
Your glory fills the skies
Your mighty works displayed for all to see
The beauty of Your majesty
Awakes my heart to sing
How marvellous, how wonderful You are

You opened my eyes to Your wonders anew
You captured my heart with this love
Because nothing on earth is as beautiful as You

My soul, my soul must sing
My soul, my soul must sing
My soul, my soul must sing
Beautiful One

sense of moving

This
is

space

to
be
dedicated
for
His
glory

before I start again

You suddenly realised that 24hours is a lot of time, and its really scary when you realised what you did with those hours given daily. A lot more evident when I sit down with a 3rd party to analyse this situation.

This week consolidating materials for parent-teacher conference, still consolidating due to the lack of efficiency on my part, and relying too much on physical self .
While consolidating I saw the wonders in how the children have grown since they came in January, February, March, April,May.

a question beginning my week:
Is my energy going into disciplining the children solely or you will choose to empower them in areas that I as their educator will provide for them.

so before I start again this week, a new week with a different perspective

Thank you Lord for His grace in picking me up when you fall really flat onto the ground .
to work hard and play hard for the Lord(:

Remembering your place

iamsecond.com

reminded of my placement in life, remember yours(:

Kids some days

Forgetting to shave cos facial hair's not one of those things that grow really fast on me., while looking on at the dark eye bags that accumulate from late nights such as these,this emerged monday afternoon.

" Teacher Jacob, you have a mouthstache. My daddy too." says the pair of twins under my charge.

and I smiled and laughed while saying, "is that so?oh my....." looking in disbelief
and we laughed even more.

such simple conversations that make you sit a while, pause and admire His creation of these little ones(:

Renewed

leaving the hustle of being at a physical church on Sunday mornings, which I didn't make plans to go a specific one, it was an opportunity to take a rest, spending the quiet time with the Creator and proper lunch at ease with family around-Joel

It was an evening reviving the way I pray and bring my petitions to the Father,watching how God's people gathering to pray, having witness people praying ever fervently, declaring the needs of this land, for the faith of the future generations on top of the current generation

It was rest that I had not have for a long time. Thank you Lord for your providence this week(:

Quietness

In a day yesterday, I sent 2 groups of a people in the morning and person in the evening, most indirectly and not physically there, but in energy and spirit that I would have been(:

To be spoken to about God's promised future that He planted in us and an army friend who's future manifest in the few years he studies over there.

in the silence of my household, you allow your thoughts finally to get rested and through in your inner being, without the hustle and bustle of getting completing A today, completing B tomrrow.

and having conversations with a few people that I would not have talked to not for rest tonight, and also reminding me of going to God first, and the encouragement of people gathered in intercession.

stop whining and start moving before I waste the energy on the former.

and thank God for rest(:

Rest

short word,

means alot to my very hectic world and also for me to Slooooooooooooooooooooooow down a little in my pacing and take in the sights of what HE presents each day walking and doing things I'm placed at(:

conversations

Food! something physical that I often forget staying back at work. Well, not superhuman ain't I? as the body loves to call upon me when I try too hard.

this week was the week of car conversations about
future plans moving on in working, contemplating the route that the Lord steers to you and whether you're called to a fuller time ministry role
and the other about the affirmation of what you're doing at work.
Which I really enjoyed having both
though the very environmental thought of petrol guzzling away.

Thank you Father(:

YHWH

"There is no God...."
said the man whose very breath came from One who created it

Comparisions

Flipping open newspapers, reading off the Radion blog and think of what I am put on the table daily, just makes me grateful once again for what i have been given.
In fast paced society of Singapore, many voices I hear includes myself shouts after a 'increased living standard'. Put that in perspective as I walk on...

Want to remember His power daily instead of just the brief days in a mission trip(:

hope you do too.....

New Era

Sitting here, behaving like a punter, jotting down the figures from the election results,
witnessing how the opposition has won over the GRC in Aljunid yet empathsising with the PAP suddenly...
Good contest and everybody's eyes on how an opposition will take the lead in bringing the
1st world parliment that was talked about after the buzz of a rousing election and perhaps hype of bringing an alternative voice into the parliment even at the supposed expense of mentioned appointment holders.

For the Lord to watch over this new era moving ahead, for the best interests of the people of this nation.

Redeemed

Watching Good Friday presentations, being part of a Good Friday/Easter Presentation, remembering the death of Jesus & and the redemptive grace of His love was just rekindling my faith once again.
Thank you Lord,
thank you Jesus
for the pain you bore for a ransom for many so that we were able to receive this eternal gift of grace(:

ChangerMaker

A gleaning from Joel Loke

Don’t wait. Don’t wait to change the lives and communities around you significantly. Once you discover that you can visualize the next step society should take, and then you discover that you can lead others to turn your visions into reality, you can do anything. The only way to know you are a changemaker is to have been one- and the younger the better. If you changed the world in middle or high school, you will be changing it again and again throughout your life. Becoming a changemaker is quite like getting on a bicycle and mastering its Zen. You will not ‘get’ it by merely reading or thinking about it. If you start too late, it may indeed be too late. What is the key to making your first, life-defining commitment to changing your world? Just give yourself permission. Many will tell you that you cannot. Please ignore them- for those whose lives are limited because they never gave themselves permission, your stepping out stirs regret. That is what you are hearing. Far better to listen to your own imagination

thank God for the week(:

rememebr that time?

Having opened the quarterly newsletter from Radion, still penning my thoughts returning from Angkor of Faith. Its sometimes I put it so mammoth that I feel this computer screen is just too small to concise what the Lord has done in the week.
The follow up actions/steps just seem like treading water having to return to the bustle of work life, focusing on working with 'your' children' at the centres that the children you met in Siem Reap seem to be compartmentalised into a section of your head. the rejoices and thanksgiving at each corner whenever a few of us just sit down and start with a
'Remember that time in Cambodia..."

Praise the Lord!(:

Leading on...

Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemptions hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
Te word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you're risen

To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart

Lead me Oh Father....

Romans 8

Life Through the Spirit

¹ Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, ² because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death. ³ For what the law was powerless to do because it was weakened by the flesh, God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh to be a sin offering. And so he condemned sin in the flesh, ⁴ in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the flesh but according to the Spirit.

⁵ Those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on what the flesh desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. ⁶ The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace. ⁷ The mind governed by the flesh is hostile to God; it does not submit to God’s law, nor can it do so.

⁸ Those who are in the realm of the flesh cannot please God.

⁹ You, however, are not in the realm of the flesh but are in the realm of the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, they do not belong to Christ. ¹⁰ But if Christ is in you, then even though your body is subject to death because of sin, the Spirit gives life because of righteousness. ¹¹ And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies because of his Spirit who lives in you.

¹² Therefore, brothers and sisters, we have an obligation—but it is not to the flesh, to live according to it. ¹³ For if you live according to the flesh, you will die; but if by the Spirit you put to death the misdeeds of the body, you will live.

¹⁴ For those who are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God. ¹⁵ The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship. And by him we cry, “Abba,Father.” ¹⁶ The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. ¹⁷ Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.

Present Suffering and Future Glory

¹⁸ I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. For the creation waits in eager expectation for the children of God to be revealed. For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope ²¹ that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the freedom and glory of the children of God.

²² We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. ²³ Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption to sonship, the redemption of our bodies. ²⁴ For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have? ²⁵ But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.

²⁶ In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. ²⁷ And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.

²⁸ And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. ²⁹ For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.

More Than Conquerors

³¹ What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? ³² He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? ³³ Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. ³⁴ Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. ³⁵ Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?
³⁶ As it is written:

“For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”

³⁷ No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, ³⁹ neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

God of this City

tonight as I prepare to sleep for the next 2, 2 1/2 hours, and finally clearing majority of my work before approaching it again when I return..
to reflect what I wrote last entry embarking to Cambodia last year.
Remembering how massive His power can be watching cities crumbling at the quick work of the Earthquake and to rely on the power of prayer ever more walking this week.


been soaking in a myriad of songs from contemporary, soothing tunes possibly for children's naptime, the hillsongs inspirations, children's songs, songs from AOF which I turned it down to approach it in Cambodia with a new heart& also tunes I remember from my first mission trip with crusade to Phetchabun, Thailand, where I witness the mime by Corneylus with Phoebe&Ian singing to the song, "No Sacrifice".

to remember that His life is higher than mine embarking this week in one of God's city, soften the ground and calling the children of heaven(:

To you I give the gifts

Your love has given me

How can I hoard the treasures that you've designed for free?



Because

Your thoughts are higher than mine

Your words are deeper than mine

Your love is stronger than mine

This is no sacrifice

Here's my life



To you I give my future

As long as it may last

To you I give my present

To you I give my past



Because

Your thoughts are higher than mine

Your words are deeper than mine

Your love is stronger than mine

Your thoughts are higher than mine

Your words are deeper than mine

Your love is stronger than mine

This is no sacrifice

Here's my life

routines

These 3 weeks since Chinese New Year ended revolved around display boards(especially), finding my teaching style, organisational style, understanding colleagues better, building my relationship with the children.

I'm coming to terms with the fact that its work, and the slogan 'work never ends' is quite prevalent in my line of work. Unless there's no children left in the centre, work is bound to continue, and the motion just goes on like a water wheel, rolling as long there's a water current going through.

so the fact is I have take momentarily rest, or 'Sabbaths' just to stop that motion after spending 12plus hours each week night, working towards a seemingly poly assignment deadline, and more starts interjecting in the week.

Especially on my night walks home from the MRT, just to hold on to a little more of my faith and lesser on my own strength, knowing I don't have lots of free saturdays, evenings to spend quietening my heart for HIM lest meet up with dear people around me for dinners that I use to during army days.

Been turning to 98.7fm's top 20 countdown for just some company apart from the ocassional Senior Teacher who's as work focused on friday nights for the evening company, reaslising how little songs though with good beat, how no sense some of it makes, and dee jays who just fill our minds with mindless conversations that keep the cutting, pasting, a little 'thinking out of the box' at random laughters when designs appear different from how you planned it to be.

Thanking God each day, each week for what I wake up to each time.
To be ever grateful for what He's done(:

My children's potential & my thankfulness

days in school while I reflected on blog. as they get longer, the entries start turning up like dots, joining up one by one in the sky line. like this one here



Learning to be thankful(:

2 'S'-es

S- igns

Signs for me to be part of the Angkor of Faith this year, with renewed leave, with renewed help, Use me Lord for Your glory...

S - wift

It was a 'Carpe Diem' moment that happened tonight having decided that a previlege to be part of the journey in Cambodia this year. The concentration to book the correct flights, contemplating flight details as I balanced the increased costs in flights with dedication of this trip to my G-man immediately.

Remembering how Satan lurks ever closer when you are near the Lord.

Align my spirit with yours Oh Lord.
Align yours my friends(:

To share...

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

Its in the morning, where all my cousins are still snoozing away on the 2nd day of the Chinese New Year. Body alarm just got me up after about 4 hours, haha.
I'm awake filling stuffed from late night prata-ing, technically still sleep deprived and my body calls out for me to start my exercise regime before I struggle to maintain my fitness for the annual taking of the Individual Physical Proficiency Test (IPPT).
Better start training& to apply for the date!

From the Chinese New Year eve, to the first day of Chinese New Year, it has been thanksgiving for the overflow of food, for the cousins that I re-meet especially my dad's side which rarely gets together compared to my mum's for some reason,
for the connectedness when my other cousins with my mum's I think from all the annual chalets, annual outings as really young children to Fantasy Island on Sentosa, not forgetting weekly lunches at ah ma house,and not forgetting the very faithful 4-5 days we shared watching over our great grandma.

Definitely this season's 'highs' of this season saw me watching 'lows' appearing. Perhaps my journey adulthood got me observing how actually certain family members in the extended unit are seemingly in a different group of their own for some reason and the woes that I saw emerging from while working.

its sigh after sigh sometimes, behaving like an old man, which I'm like 'huhh, isn't there a better way we settle this?' into a sense of seemingly helplessness.
BUT, watching the thing go by doesn't seem to be actually helpful ain't it?
Change start with the hardest person......myself.


Remember how thankful we are to be provided with something to feast
while I had the opportunity to look at cards from the World Children Fund and also remember people who can't afford day to day living, what more celebrations like these.

so with that,Have a blessed New Year my friends(:

P.S: I can hear work calling me when the 3rd day of chinese new year come tomrrow:S

By HIS STRENGTH....

Passes

"I do not know who is Madam Ho, I only know her as ah ma."....

Just one of the lines I remembered from Pamela & Amanda's Grandma's funeral.

I sat there and listen to how their Cousin, George shared of their ah ma,
Food's what most of us remember our ah ma's for. Theirs was steamed Pomfret as the highlight, heartfelt laughable moments while you see their faces lit up, gesturing that "haha, those were the days." giving thanks when their ah ma has received Christ into her life while reminded, MY ah ma's don't exactly have much time left on this earthly realm.

Funerals are usually gone with a role for us related to the family to provide an unspoken support, just the presence, or the handling of contributions to help the family cover funeral expenses. But it also gave me a time of refreshing in my walk with God as I listen to assurance from the reflective songs we shared and of the assurance in the salvation through Jesus Christ through the eulogy&sharing of the worship leader.

"Through it all", especially bringing it back from Thailand while sharing in worship with my mission team mates & meditating on the words "I will trust in You..." when I'm down.

I leave the physical place,having been blessed with this humbling experience spiritually.
Thank God for HIS touch(:

see you later

Amanda&Pamela's grandma was called finally home to the Lord, moving on 3 years after their grandad did so, while remembering having that contact with her as Grandpa Soo went ahead that week.

Though physically you're gonna miss the person, but its in this calmness that she was called back as a child of God(:

Have a blessed week my friends(:

January

Its 4 weeks ALREADY since the school just opened its door. My inital shock that 3 children were coming in only,but it was a blessing in disguise. Feeling ever unprepared, underprepared, unprofessional about my standards.

I want to thank God for His wisdom, in small steps that I was able to take
while embarking on this 4 weeks.

October is approaching when my service term completes and
I'm asked,"so Jacob, what's next?Degree to what?"

Father show me...

If you're at such a crossroad,PRAY...praying with you(:

I praise you Lord

I praise you Lord
for who You are
and all the mighty things You done
You saved my soul
You made me whole
and now I sing my praise to You

When I was lost and deep in sin,
You sent your Holy Spirit in
You cleanse my heart and made it new
and now I sing my praise to You.

it reminded me of the first Angkor of Faith as Joel taught us, sitting in a hot balcony and praising our Father in unison, the more in tuned people letting the Spirit minister to them while I was at a stage of my moment trying to get notes right for new songs. I looked back and laughed with a chuckle, "how time flies" and how different i approach the new songs that I come across now since that earlier encounter.

So this year is into its 5th year,
what's installed for the land that His people will plant their feet on?
We will just have to seek His will, listen, really open our hearts for His love to outpour to the people.

Not "Singaporeans love you, but God loves you"(:

Need to open my 'ears' to listen to His direction.
Hope you do too my friends(:

God is bigger than we think

Thought for the night:
walls are walls, Bondaries are boundaires, Boundaries are fences with gates.
IN with the good, block out the bad.

In a small church, is there is this tendency to micro-nise God?yes we talked about He's nearer than we think, but what about Bigger than we think?

Ask Him today!(:

to lead, to excel and to overcome.

Joel's in OCS for his service term before that white chocolate bar on his green uniform actually rises 2 more times to 3, and finally been given a gold embroided one on his parade/office uniform.

I always remember the parades where I was took there with the band, rehearsing the countless times, always think you can't make it after the 1st mad rehearsal at 2.30/3pm in the afternoon, but taking it in gradually, moving up to becoming senior of the band & return the concern,look out for new birds coming in.

He's in 3 weeks, until chinese new year's eve at least,

and that God speaks to him, in His time, be His guide in the jungle of fieldcamps, overseas deployments, away from home.

KABOOM!

Thank God for the 1st worship that HE held in HIS hand, blessing our time as we honoured HIM. MAy the songs that we used be like fragrant incense that rise to HIM.

I pray that to not be a thing of this 1st sunday, but coming each week as an offering to HIM(:

Will you?

"will you take Ja seng ran as your weded wife...."
forgot the next section of the vow accompanied it asking Jurgen de Wulf for his vow as her lawful weded husband, but of course its content had about being with her in times of joy and in times of sorrow.

I just kept smiling when the couple was up there taking their vows in the solemnisation ceremony even with aching hands carrying a Iphone4 videoing the whole process.
just a joy to celebrate the union of 2 individuals, and watching the friends coming together to celebrate it with them,in Singapore& skyping from Belgium.
To honour our Father in 'Shout to the Lord', 'Power of the Love',and that last song which I can't pin point the title.

the countless pictures that filled the night, hearing in good laughter, yum seng as we closed.
Its just thanksgiving that I was able to be given the privilege to witness such an ocassion.

I ask that God provide for their walk together now as husband and wife, in marital commitment& growing as a household of God(:

Surprise Surprise

Apparently, I have witnessed the progress of Blogger's progression from accepting the 'hotmail' to eventually locking out that account and insisting that I sign in with a Gmail one.

Was browsing it a few nights back, into the many drafts that were saved in the account owing to the fact that i have this tendency to "aiya, now not the time, postpone 1st".
The deadliness of 'Procrastination' :X

I actually found things that were amusing, inspiring, God led, Provided by Him, victories, ups and downs of my journey and also noticing particularly specially written if I saw correctly 2 very small corners yet pivotal anecdotals.

Pivotal was because if I have read it there and then, it would have really clear the blurness in my sight.
But I think that will also have taken away the moments I spent with our Father in my walk, just on a single silent retreat, walking that very necessary stretch in the absence of another half physically, and emerge from there a stronger servant of God in my walk.

while on that journey, you were being interceded in prayer and it was a thanksgiving how He provides, and witnessing you lean upon the Lord

Wanna say thank you to you & thank God for the encouragements
and my apologies, i'm a very blind bat.

So that was you my friend writing it while I was thinking to myself when did that emerge from(:

Renewal

its 3am, just completed 1 of my tasks this week, not believing that I could actually do it.
but Thank God.
Its in the quietness when you really retreat away, away from all distractions, literally when everyone's asleep now, unless you're burning midnight oil doing something.

But thank Him(:

My Sunday

Wonderful Merciful Saviour
Precious Redeemer and Friend

Who would have thought that a lamb could
rescue the souls of men
Oh You rescue the souls of men

Counselor Comforter Keeper,
Spirit we long to embrace
You offer hope when our hearts have
hopelessly lost our way,
Oh we hopelessly lost our way.

You are the One that we Praise
You are the One we adore,
You give the healing and grace
Our, hearts always hunger for
Oh our hearts always hunger for.

Almighty Infinite Father
Faithfully loving your own
Here in our weaknesses you find us
Falling before your throne
Oh we fallen before your throne.

My hearing increased in sensitivity during sermon to the fact that Kaboom was actually gonna be amiss on 1st weeks of the month, but thank God for the video that uncle Mark shared watching His creation, I just could not hesitate to gasps in the awe of its creation, and actually the aspiration to at least witness it live if I'm given the privilege to.

Today, as we dedicated each ministry to HIS glory, it was thanksgiving after thanksgiving amongst the different ministries, but more importantly, the next thought raced in was, "remember to uphold it to the Maker's hands"

And the songs aligning with today's theme, led by Joshua in hymms and songs brought back nostalgia to times
in Thailand,
and when I was still tenor in pitch moving down the scale towards the bass range.
Our dear director, Eoin who led us in enduring sessions of choir, starting off with hymms, to the above song that was shared at cell.

Songs just bring about expressions that sometimes through my words I just couldn't string the right ones together.
Thank God(:

and that in your week you have a song to praise HIM......

What's Kaboom?

So in the meeting for Kaboom(thank God) that finally set the tone for 2011,

a concluding question posed to a 8 year old Daphne from mum,

"what comes to your mind when we say Kaboom?"

"praise and worship"

Its a moment when you take in and give thanks that this child was actually what was envisioned, children that praise God.

Not just them, but us who lead these young ones to actually grow in our relationship with our Father and using praises as an offering.

May you find a moment to praise HIM each day(:

the zoom of life

Boarding the train on friday was so easy yet so hard to forget.


It happened the lady in front of me actually tapped her card for the person in front of her,because that 1st person's card apparently didn't get scanned successfully or hers for that matter.
so I think it was out of impatience that I ended up tapping for her and both of us like whizzed through, even when my mind actually processed,"ok her card was tapped unsuccessfully for herself."


Its like a jolt to my body that, the mundane things in life I take for granted just fly by in motion.

Have to embrace my mundane- ness more with joy&find my Maker

I'm just loving its tune and emotion behind the intent of this song without the nitty gritty 'taking it apart' process to screen each sentance of the song.
Hope you enjoy it as much as I did watching the young girl, Rapunzel on her adventures(:

Rapunzel:
All those days watching from the windows
All those years outside looking in
All that time never even knowing
Just how blind I've been
Now I'm here, blinking in the starlight
Now I'm here, suddenly I see
Standing here, it's all so clear
I'm where I'm meant to be

And at last I see the light
And it's like the fog has lifted
And at last I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once everything looks different
Now that I see you

Flynn:
All those days chasing down a daydream
All those years living in a blur
All that time never truly seeing
Things, the way they were
Now she's here shining in the starlight
Now she's here, suddenly I know
If she's here it's crystal clear
I'm where I'm meant to go

Rapunzel & Flynn:
And at last I see the light

Flynn:
And it's like the fog is lifted

Rapunzel & Flynn:
And at last I see the light

Rapunzel:
And it's like the sky is new

Rapunzel & Flynn:
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once, everything is different
Now that I see you, now that I see you

New Year, carried beginnings.

Blessed New Year to you my friends!

had returned from a night of counting down in welcoming the arrival of 2011 over at Han's, where dinner was shared.
Was getting a little mind crash manueovering our black teams Vs coloured team mates in the round robin game,a crazy gift exchange that got all of us hysterical, counting down & the worship/reflection session that got us closing for the night.

Of the many events that took place that evening, reflection stood out for me cos I had the quietest moment with the reddish sky, and tranquility for a clearer mind before my Maker.On top of that to be encouraged by the resolve of others sharing their goals in 2011, of which I noticed everytime you commit something great for God, the warfare from the dark side I call it start sharpening its weapons of choice to make sure it get really tough.

Its termed carried beginnings, cos I felt that its not just dropping everything away and start from zero again, though its usually quite the easiest thing to do.
push restart button*

I kinda see what's still need working,
so with that I carry it to complete what the tasks/voices require of me(:

2011

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Lk-1iMPUkg&feature=related

The movie that accompanied a few of us after a time of reflection & celebration.
Rapunzel's a depiction of girl power in this show! hahaha, really hilarious with the frying pan of hers & watching her growing in her relationship with her companion, Flynn Rider through the movie.
And yes, Mandy Moore's the singer I was informed(:

7 AM, the usual morning lineup
Start on the chores and sweep 'til the floor's all clean
Polish and wax, do laundry, and mop and shine up
Sweep again, and by then it's like 7:15

And so I'll read a book
Or maybe two or three
I'll add a few new paintings to my gallery
I'll play guitar and knit
And cook and basically
Just wonder when will my life begin?

Then after lunch it's puzzles and darts and baking
Paper mache, a bit of ballet and chess
Pottery and ventriloquy, candle making
Then I'll stretch, maybe sketch, take a climb
Sew a dress!

And I'll reread the books
If I have time to spare
I'll paint the walls some more
I'm sure there's room somewhere
And then I'll brush and brush
and brush and brush my hair
Stuck in the same place I've always been

And I'll keep wanderin' and wanderin'
And wanderin' and wonderin'
When will my life begin?

And tomorrow night
Lights will appear
Just like they do on my birthday each year
What is it like
Out there where they glow?
Now that I'm older
Mother might just
Let me go...