Sunday, February 21, 2010


by Starfield

I have not much
To offer You
Not near what You deserve
But still I come
Because Your cross
Has placed in me my worth

Oh, Christ my King
Of sympathy
Whose wounds secure my peace
Your grace extends
To call me friend
Your mercy sets me free

And I know I'm weak
I know I'm unworthy
To call upon Your name
But because of grace
Because of Your mercy
I stand here unashamed

I can't explain
This kind of love
I'm humbled and amazed
That You'd come down
From heavens heights
And greet me face to face

Here I am at Your feet
In my brokeness complete

listened with a new perspective:)

Sunday, February 14, 2010


Its the first day of the lunar new year....returning from reunion dinner.
A reminder of the need to meet with extended family though we see each other rarely see each other, leading own lives away from their older folks.

a lot of things I have experiences that I have carried over these few weeks. of which I remember of it at the moment.

I saw a father and his daughter of 12 being in conflict on Sunday afternoon,7th Feb, before I left for the Change-of-guards ceremony preparation. The immense outburst of energy that was filled in each moment of exclamation was just terrifying even for me. Feeling helpless to not be interfering when there's an angry man, I couldn't even pray but watching the cycle 3 times was just heart wretching. The scary 'thing' in him just creeped out and did its damage to his daughter possibly for for worse. it had to happen repeatedly cos she, like me, especially being angry in my younger days will just not do what parents ask me to do at that moment, which my folks will say,"sure, not needing dinner?alright." which I go hungry,swallowing my pride and I still have to ask for some leftovers later." but her male folk is a ltitle more insistent of his way, hence such a scenario.
I hope its the last of such instances where I have to see father/fathers lose their cool in such a way. Its just personally rather deterimental for children to be expressing displeasure in such a rash manner. Still thinking about & wanna be praying for them....

and to be questioned on what's actually happening&beneficial in being at bible study,cell group on top of sunday's just froze me for a moment. In the span of such sessions, what exactly did I store in my head?how many percents just flew past me? And asked about the relevance to the working world, and yes,values differ, but there are ways to align the kingdom values with the marketplace ma. The pointing out of my opinions just stopped at the tip of my mouth taking into consideration of relation of seniority and being responsible witnessess to others cos being blunt might have aggravated the atmosphere.
still thinking of it& praying for senior to let junior be allowed to spend time at especially cell group&bible study. For senior to see the transformation for what termed as 'timid' junior to a courageous servant in the marketplace when he's called to. And a reminder for me to put in extra effort for each meet I am provided with...

BLESSED NEW YEAR it will be to spend my time with my loved ones & family. Am thankful for the previlage to share in one.
This time with much more thinking for others instead of myself(:

Have a wonderful time with your loved ones too...