WORK

Mediocre work Vs Smart Work

My brother's spirit and voice seem to appear
whenever i'm taunted with the decision to lean to the first, though that's how close I can get close to him these times while he's still in the States.

Thinking about my crusade days where faith building was challenged*. School days always bring back nostalgia good or bad(: Re-looking towards HIM in the Marketplace*

passing thought

In school this term, we're doing a series of "I can..."s with what our body parts can accomplished to a '4' year child.
Having 'I thinks' which align with the same convention and lots of presumptions/doubts/processes floating in the sea of cells in my head.
-settle your doubts with answers-
Looking forward to the sessions of such with people(:

What can I do?

There is a longing only You can fill....

My deliverer, I will wait for you oh Lord, for Your mighty hand to save...

When all crumbles in, when all fails, where can I go? what can I do? but to look to You...

I hope I run to You straight away rather than lean on my strength

What on Earth am I here for?

DISCIPLESHIP- You were created to become like Christ

Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus.- Phillippians 2:5

Flipping in the newspapers with the fallen regime in Libya, the picture that stared at me was the similar scene of blood stains on the ground in pools surrounding fallen/abandoned bodies without the reach of medical treatment, like the one that I met in Phnom Penh.

Pray for the new people in government to show compassion in the face of contemplating the very immediate gratification of taking revenge against followers of the former leader.

What on Earth am I here for?

excerpt from Rick Warren

"For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." - Ephesians 2:10

WORSHIP- You were planned for God's pleasure

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength."

- Mark12:30

Love the Lord your God
With all your heart
With all your soul
With all your mind
And with all your strength

With all my heart
With all my soul
With all my mind
And with all my strength

I will serve the Lord
With all my heart
With all my soul
With all my mind
And with all my strength

With all my heart
With all my soul
With all my mind
And with all my strength

I will love You Lord
With all my heart
With all my soul
With all my mind
And with all my strength

I will love You
And I will serve You
And I will praise You
For all my days yeah
And I will love You
I will love You
Yes, I will love You

Your convictions?

The height of your accomplishment will equal the depth of your convictions

-William F. Scolavino-

Just blessed to glean from philosophers though they get really deep sometimes

Pause

In the myraid of emotions that whizzes past me this week, of work demands, relationships, ministry.. I open the letter containing updates that come from Campus Crusade, usually reflections from the country leader which I had started to receive when I got on board supporting a friend of mine, though she has completed her short term internship with them and moving into studies. this line popped out....

" 'Do not fear what they dear, do not be frightened.' But in your hears, set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect."
1 Peter 3:14-15

Want to be ever equipped and ready and being a light in the marketplace

sings* 'Let your light shine, woahhhhhhh, Let your light shine, woahhhhhhh. Let your light shine and let Jesus shine through you....

May yours too(:

sense of moving

This
is

space

to
be
dedicated
for
His
glory

Remembering your place

iamsecond.com

reminded of my placement in life, remember yours(:

Quietness

In a day yesterday, I sent 2 groups of a people in the morning and person in the evening, most indirectly and not physically there, but in energy and spirit that I would have been(:

To be spoken to about God's promised future that He planted in us and an army friend who's future manifest in the few years he studies over there.

in the silence of my household, you allow your thoughts finally to get rested and through in your inner being, without the hustle and bustle of getting completing A today, completing B tomrrow.

and having conversations with a few people that I would not have talked to not for rest tonight, and also reminding me of going to God first, and the encouragement of people gathered in intercession.

stop whining and start moving before I waste the energy on the former.

and thank God for rest(:

conversations

Food! something physical that I often forget staying back at work. Well, not superhuman ain't I? as the body loves to call upon me when I try too hard.

this week was the week of car conversations about
future plans moving on in working, contemplating the route that the Lord steers to you and whether you're called to a fuller time ministry role
and the other about the affirmation of what you're doing at work.
Which I really enjoyed having both
though the very environmental thought of petrol guzzling away.

Thank you Father(:

YHWH

"There is no God...."
said the man whose very breath came from One who created it

God of this City

tonight as I prepare to sleep for the next 2, 2 1/2 hours, and finally clearing majority of my work before approaching it again when I return..
to reflect what I wrote last entry embarking to Cambodia last year.
Remembering how massive His power can be watching cities crumbling at the quick work of the Earthquake and to rely on the power of prayer ever more walking this week.


been soaking in a myriad of songs from contemporary, soothing tunes possibly for children's naptime, the hillsongs inspirations, children's songs, songs from AOF which I turned it down to approach it in Cambodia with a new heart& also tunes I remember from my first mission trip with crusade to Phetchabun, Thailand, where I witness the mime by Corneylus with Phoebe&Ian singing to the song, "No Sacrifice".

to remember that His life is higher than mine embarking this week in one of God's city, soften the ground and calling the children of heaven(:

To you I give the gifts

Your love has given me

How can I hoard the treasures that you've designed for free?



Because

Your thoughts are higher than mine

Your words are deeper than mine

Your love is stronger than mine

This is no sacrifice

Here's my life



To you I give my future

As long as it may last

To you I give my present

To you I give my past



Because

Your thoughts are higher than mine

Your words are deeper than mine

Your love is stronger than mine

Your thoughts are higher than mine

Your words are deeper than mine

Your love is stronger than mine

This is no sacrifice

Here's my life

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

Its in the morning, where all my cousins are still snoozing away on the 2nd day of the Chinese New Year. Body alarm just got me up after about 4 hours, haha.
I'm awake filling stuffed from late night prata-ing, technically still sleep deprived and my body calls out for me to start my exercise regime before I struggle to maintain my fitness for the annual taking of the Individual Physical Proficiency Test (IPPT).
Better start training& to apply for the date!

From the Chinese New Year eve, to the first day of Chinese New Year, it has been thanksgiving for the overflow of food, for the cousins that I re-meet especially my dad's side which rarely gets together compared to my mum's for some reason,
for the connectedness when my other cousins with my mum's I think from all the annual chalets, annual outings as really young children to Fantasy Island on Sentosa, not forgetting weekly lunches at ah ma house,and not forgetting the very faithful 4-5 days we shared watching over our great grandma.

Definitely this season's 'highs' of this season saw me watching 'lows' appearing. Perhaps my journey adulthood got me observing how actually certain family members in the extended unit are seemingly in a different group of their own for some reason and the woes that I saw emerging from while working.

its sigh after sigh sometimes, behaving like an old man, which I'm like 'huhh, isn't there a better way we settle this?' into a sense of seemingly helplessness.
BUT, watching the thing go by doesn't seem to be actually helpful ain't it?
Change start with the hardest person......myself.


Remember how thankful we are to be provided with something to feast
while I had the opportunity to look at cards from the World Children Fund and also remember people who can't afford day to day living, what more celebrations like these.

so with that,Have a blessed New Year my friends(:

P.S: I can hear work calling me when the 3rd day of chinese new year come tomrrow:S

By HIS STRENGTH....

I praise you Lord

I praise you Lord
for who You are
and all the mighty things You done
You saved my soul
You made me whole
and now I sing my praise to You

When I was lost and deep in sin,
You sent your Holy Spirit in
You cleanse my heart and made it new
and now I sing my praise to You.

it reminded me of the first Angkor of Faith as Joel taught us, sitting in a hot balcony and praising our Father in unison, the more in tuned people letting the Spirit minister to them while I was at a stage of my moment trying to get notes right for new songs. I looked back and laughed with a chuckle, "how time flies" and how different i approach the new songs that I come across now since that earlier encounter.

So this year is into its 5th year,
what's installed for the land that His people will plant their feet on?
We will just have to seek His will, listen, really open our hearts for His love to outpour to the people.

Not "Singaporeans love you, but God loves you"(:

Need to open my 'ears' to listen to His direction.
Hope you do too my friends(:

God is bigger than we think

Thought for the night:
walls are walls, Bondaries are boundaires, Boundaries are fences with gates.
IN with the good, block out the bad.

In a small church, is there is this tendency to micro-nise God?yes we talked about He's nearer than we think, but what about Bigger than we think?

Ask Him today!(:

Surprise Surprise

Apparently, I have witnessed the progress of Blogger's progression from accepting the 'hotmail' to eventually locking out that account and insisting that I sign in with a Gmail one.

Was browsing it a few nights back, into the many drafts that were saved in the account owing to the fact that i have this tendency to "aiya, now not the time, postpone 1st".
The deadliness of 'Procrastination' :X

I actually found things that were amusing, inspiring, God led, Provided by Him, victories, ups and downs of my journey and also noticing particularly specially written if I saw correctly 2 very small corners yet pivotal anecdotals.

Pivotal was because if I have read it there and then, it would have really clear the blurness in my sight.
But I think that will also have taken away the moments I spent with our Father in my walk, just on a single silent retreat, walking that very necessary stretch in the absence of another half physically, and emerge from there a stronger servant of God in my walk.

while on that journey, you were being interceded in prayer and it was a thanksgiving how He provides, and witnessing you lean upon the Lord

Wanna say thank you to you & thank God for the encouragements
and my apologies, i'm a very blind bat.

So that was you my friend writing it while I was thinking to myself when did that emerge from(:

the zoom of life

Boarding the train on friday was so easy yet so hard to forget.


It happened the lady in front of me actually tapped her card for the person in front of her,because that 1st person's card apparently didn't get scanned successfully or hers for that matter.
so I think it was out of impatience that I ended up tapping for her and both of us like whizzed through, even when my mind actually processed,"ok her card was tapped unsuccessfully for herself."


Its like a jolt to my body that, the mundane things in life I take for granted just fly by in motion.

Have to embrace my mundane- ness more with joy&find my Maker

Learnings

In walking everyday, there are actually so many windows of learning, even up to the simplest learning or re-learning of
placing Him 1st,
patience while queuing instead of sulking
embracing the silence in the wilds travelling,
give thanks & look positive instead of whining about what couldn't be done
actively finding time set aside for my Maker
Intercessory prayers,
preparing ahead,
thinking before speaking,

this year is coming to a close, so what have we done with the life we had this year?
How have we seen the goodness of the Lord working amongst us, not necessarily on us this year?

Have a blessed week counting down to the thanksgivings my friends(:

walking how far?

counting the days from the last entry,
17 days just whizzed by, like how time passed setting up the things at my new school these few days.

Yesterday was day 1 at Holland Drive officially after 2 months odd at Jurong West. leaving missing these children who gave me joy that comes with the anger&frustration that taught me as a teacher to manage their child-like nature.

watching very hard God moving in the midst though i'm blinded/distracted a lot from the physical fatigue, things on my mind to hold on that I have this fear of fading if I took it off too long.
just the lack of discipline to pen down my thoughts that I have with my Father
cos I realised the memory of mine is very temporary.
Was walking home monday night without a flat phone,
thinking back what I saw in the
Chronicles of Narnia: Voyage of the Dawn Treader past friday.

Apart from 'WAH's & other sound effects that accompanied my seat in all movies so far:X

It struck me when they began the voyage, where they were forewarn of temptations, portrayed in smoky green things that slowly seek to engulf you,buzzing around you.
I was like, don't you just want these things to just not appear in the first place and all the struggle to stay strong need not take place, but that's actually what we encounter in life walking the journey isn't it?
with perseverance & 'Aslan' revealing Himself to steer you back.

And when Aslan, dug the claws into the sand, roared at Eustace disintegrating the 'dragon scales' on the outside
reminded me of the time when Corney saw sharing from Isaiah 53:5 in his summary that
" by his stripes, impossible is nothing." from the 3 stripes in the sand.

which actually had the description of the moment Aslan ws brought to the stone to be killed by the ice queen in the 1st movie before he was resurrected.


the next part of thougts
revolved around relationships with people dear to me,
the significance/purpose of the trip to Cambodia, taking myself out of being like this
'I know what's it like to be there' mindset and clearly seeking what He's saying to me.
before it continued, prayer followed in& I reached the lift for an interruption.

My heart to quieten with my Maker
Blessed week my dear friends(: