Time waits for no man

Indeed it doesn't...

The past 2 weeks, as I talk to certain people,
whose lives have such a desire to not be wasting time.

1 side reminding me,"think,think, how are you gonna lead this group of people?"
like a person from the corporate world.
Or am I thinking upon it with God?
Am I asking HIM to lead my life.
Am I even acknowledging him daily be my no.1 instead of myself or the other things 1st?

the other side, another friend,having a gift for accuracy, calculating that actually based on 24 hrs, you actually suppose to spend about 2hours with God, if your doing it on a 10% basis:X
How much time do I spend actually with HIM?

my eyes 'opened', whenever I walk in my day. I'm glad & thankful it did(:

These reminders just pop in my mind, especially when i'm free, like resting, perhaps laughing about stuff, poking fun at people for the moment, travelling to and fro destinations. and back to the thinking mode, praying mode, asking to be wise in my discernment.

have to fix my eyes on things that use my time meaningfully before Satan's does put his 'ideas' into my head. he almost did again.

Hope your week is going well by God's Grace(:

Good Byes

Its been 2 weeks returning from Siem Reap, Cambodia.
Had to re-ignite my engine for 'regimentation' reporting in various attires for different occassions after a week dorn in shorts and slippers for almost the whole time.

I'm looking at food in a different light each time its in front of me,
having spent 3 days for various reasons not having/ having little lunch.
For Aunty Cassandra, for the benefit of children at the Tonle Sap, for the benefit of the children at the lunch gatherings we had.
The thankfulness&appreciation of the abundance we have, the ability to afford such immediate needs,
The replies of 'good', laughing together as the children and adults sit together. Just reminds me of the children in Siem Reap, the memories of insisting 'feed the children' before i eat.

Living like a tourist or a tour guide was a challenge that Uncle Paul gave us at 1 of the devotions.

Going local roadside than resturants that does remind me of a Holland Village enclave.
No complaning of rusty water for bathing, of mosquitos, of the heat, of a lower standard of food hygiene, feet that will almost never be entirely clean with the sandy, eating a beetle that taste like ikan billis, eating a half formed duck egg as part of a devotional thought to live like street kid, dry season reminded me of the similar experience up in Phetchabun, Khek Noi Village in Thailand last year.

The morning devotions that our Japanese friend, Junichi gives daily.
The same question echoing with the accent, "How can we be friends with children?"

with our Hands,
Our Feet,
Our Ears,
Our Mouth,
and our Hearts.

No matter how childish children naturally are, approaching them with a sincere heart.
I listened to stories they share about their lives gives me a 'wow' and also how family units are not as intact compared to many of us here
I saw them rest in the common hall of the guesthouse sleeping soundly like angelic beings for a brief amount of time and up moving about again, the generosity of them giving you the bangles they make, paper wind mills, being your tour guide cycling along the cambodian road and the occassional tempers when they misunderstand your intentions in getting them lunch for that day.

For a land that needs God, in the bustling of a tourist area. For lives of children to be ministered to, for the hungry, for the misguided individuals.
So much to do for a relief worker/missionary placed there.
So much to be praying for each time instead of for yourselves 1st.

No matter how strange songs sequence, we sing with a grateful heart.
In perfecting our singing for singing class, a pure heart as you approach God.
As you sing that He's the Father of Mercies, Worthy is the Lamb, the darling of heaven that was crucified, the song of the redeemed that God's children because He Reigns.

Leaving a day earlier was not easy, with the children's face sadden, with invisible 'I will miss you' on it. Giving your hugs, reminders for some of them to start school, study hard and get a good education.
Knowing that MORE that we can do for these children on top of the fun stuff that was done each day. If i'm allowed to, it would be my previlage to return.

better get all of it down before I drift further away from the memories that formed this experience.

Surrendering to God in all of my situations(:
Have a blessed week my friends

Packing and checking

Packing my bag tonight for Siem Reap,
hoping parents don't jump out of their room and nag at me,
gathering my thoughts on the logistics of this team, remembering how the team was prepared in spirit during my time up to Thailand and what I could do with this team.

Thanking God for my brother, Joel's given grades,
watching over him as he walks the next phase of his journey even when he doesn't seem to be able to feel so.

thank God for the showers of blessing which quenched a little of the haze, or most of it!
it was WOW , my previlage to ask for rain & HE sent it and overflowing here.
-have to start praing for Philipines& I to eat less rice-

Thank God for feeding on HIS word in Luke 19:1-10. bullet training a little at sharing,but in hope that the group was able to soak in HIS word as I was used as a mouth piece.
and remembering Zaccheus, what Jesus did, how the crowds of people reacted to & remembering to put judgements of people on hold and find out before you 'box' them up.

Remembering to intercede for others, which you realised how many people in the world
He watches over,
how powerful prayer in faith and confidence of the Lord takes place,
putting my struggles in front of HIM,
giving thanks in all circumstances,
Remembering he gives and takes away.

a week ahead to allow HIM to flow in us as offerings to HIS people in Cambodia,
pray with me for the teams that congregate to serve with Love and passion for these people, as though we saw Jesus pouring in their lives.

I'll see you in a week's time!(:
and Indeed he Reigns!

where does it come from?

Beginning to run, dedicating it to God...
Feeling the movement in the wind that blows in my face occasionally,
and actually you never know where it specifically came from or where it stops.
Having some 'eco-siveness', if that's even a word,
that i think stirred up after helping twice with the Romanates' recycling project last year..,
feeling compelled to pick up plastic bottles,cans, and dropping it at the recycling bin in my vincinity.

Porridge Buffet for lunch with 2 Band Mates, Kelvin & Luke...
eating shocking amounts of oranges for dessert.
taking an after lunch stroll before we cathing a 4.30 movie.
Deciding with 'Alice in Wonderland' over
Jack Neo's local production of '做人' a.k.a how to behave as a human being.

Alice in wonderland, was intriguing,
filled with many underlying messages behind the characters involved.

Remebering the Red Queen's bad temper and executing everybody who was not up to mark with, "OFF WITH HIS HEAD!"
Alice's resolve to stand out as Alice who thought of impossible things, reminded by her father of doing 6 things.
and the amusing thing about the 'smartest people all are actaully mad' when Alice is panicking of her nightmares & her action of consoling the Hatter.
the quirkyness that happens in wonderland & cheshire cat.

Thank God for the Day(:

Awakening

Instead of feeding on physical food which i'm no stranger to,
I will be feeding on spiritual food before I do anything else in my day.

At cell, an individual's resolve for the group to not live in a 'everything's good' world got the group discussing, sharing a slice of their life, deeper, which since shared are kept within the group to be interceded upon.

For us to be receiving in worship instead of just giving.
is for us to Outpour our SELF
and Let God fill our cups.

Praise The Lord!
Hope you are able to praise the Lord this week and eat well(:

Listen and work

Resting at home before the SAF Band Anniversary Dinner in the evening.
It was liberating to be spending good time quietly by the canal with God's word and HIS presence, to recall how he delivered me.
How easy was is to fall back into old self thereafter, just wallowing in 'just nice comfy' zone,
but the work goes on.
^{Psalms 27:1}
The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?
The warm spell in the air reminds me of my time in Cambodia and Thailand.

was blessed by this video watching Channel 5.
watching the News yesterday of the Earthquake in Chile, my brother, Joel ask in jest,
"so what happened to Haiti?"
on top of the current disater, remember Haiti and do our part in efforts and prayer.
Music simply brought unspoken feelings across easily.
May you too exude similar emotions by it(:

Have a blessed week my friends(:

Offering

"Unashamed"
by Starfield

I have not much
To offer You
Not near what You deserve
But still I come
Because Your cross
Has placed in me my worth

Oh, Christ my King
Of sympathy
Whose wounds secure my peace
Your grace extends
To call me friend
Your mercy sets me free

And I know I'm weak
I know I'm unworthy
To call upon Your name
But because of grace
Because of Your mercy
I stand here unashamed

I can't explain
This kind of love
I'm humbled and amazed
That You'd come down
From heavens heights
And greet me face to face

Here I am at Your feet

In my brokeness complete

listened with a new perspective:)